The fear of feeling

We desire to find the path to inner peace, joy and freedom. We strive to feel lovable, worthy and secure. We know that if we do our inner work and open to our spiritual connection, we will feel all of that. Yet we often resist doing our inner work. This article discusses the feelings we are afraid to feel, because we are not sure we can manage them, so we turn to our addictions instead of turning to our spiritual guidance. We desire to find the path to peace, joy and freedom. We strive to feel lovable, worthy and secure. We know that if we do our inner work and open to our connection with Spirit, we will feel all of that. Yet we don't. We put off dialoguing for days or weeks. We stay stuck in our misery or numbness. Why? What are we so afraid of if we open to learning about loving?
I have searched for many years for the answer to this question. Over and over I would find myself out of grace and joy and into anxiety and stress. Each time it was because I failed to take care of myself in some way.
The problem is that all feelings are in the same box. Pain is in the same box as joy. We cannot be putting a lid on pain without putting a lid on joy as well.
What is the pain we are striving so hard to avoid feeling? Most people feel a lot of pain. We feel anxious, frightened, depressed, hurt. Since we are often in pain, it doesn't seem to make sense that we are, at the same time as we are feeling all this pain, also avoiding pain. Yet that is exactly what we are doing.
As unhappy as we may be feeling, we are avoiding pain that we believe is even greater than the pain we are feeling.
I have discovered that there are three feelings which most people want to avoid at all cost: aloneness, loneliness and helplessness over others.
Aloneness is what we feel inside when we are disconnected from God. Loneliness is what we feel when we cannot connect with another, either because our heart is closed, their heart is closed, or both of our hearts are closed. Helplessness is what we would feel if, when we want to connect with another and his or her heart is closed, we accept that there is nothing we can do to make them open their heart.
When we were babies and small children, we could not allow ourselves to feel these feelings. We could not have handled them and may have died of despair. So we learned many protections to avoid feeling these feelings.
The problem is that we still think we will die if we feel these feelings, so we are still avoiding them. We avoid connecting with God for fear God will not be there and we will feel alone. We get angry, withdraw, eat, drink, take drugs, watch TV, get busy, overwork and and indulge in many other addictions to avoid feeling the pain of our loneliness and helplessness.
Yet loneliness in our society is unavoidable. So many people spend their lives with their hearts closed to avoid their pain that it is impossible not to be around people whose hearts are closed some of the time. If we choose to avoid feeling our loneliness and helplessness, then we too will close our heart. However, when we close our heart we close down the joy too. Then we are stuck with the anxiety, fear, depression and hurt that is endemic in our society.
You will not die if you open to feeling your loneliness and helplessness. It is even quite tolerable if you hold your lonely Child while bringing through love from God, for then you are not alone in your loneliness. The willingness to feel the pain of loneliness and helplessness opens the door to joy, peace, and freedom. The more you open to God in your loneliness, the more you are able to embrace the privilege of this sacred journey of evolving your soul. There is great joy in the journey, even when there is loneliness!

Pervamania

This is a topic that I have been wanting to speak about for a long time. The streets of London are full of perverted sick minded individuals who like to take advantage of and exploit weaker members of society. These ill minded beings spend their malicious moments cunningly thinking up so called strategic plans to pounce on their preys. They wait for the best moments, to try and reach their revolting aims.

According to the BCS self-completion survey in 2001, 2% of women aged 16-59 were subject to less serious sexual assault and 0.5 percent to serious sexual assault during the year prior to interview. 0.3% of women reported they had been raped in the last year. Among men, 0.2 per cent were subject to any form of sexual assault during the year prior to interview. Seven per cent of women had suffered a serious sexual assault at least once in their lifetime (including rape) since the age of 16. 1.5% of men had suffered a serious sexual assault since the age of 16, with 0.9% reporting rape.

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Domestic violence, sexual assault and stalking
Rape and sexual assault of women
Crime in England and Wales 2004/05

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Mohammad Reza Sharifi's work

Ruby
Shelter
Illusions
Glad tiding of freshness
Souvenir
For Persions
I love and ...
Night Story
Lost Secret
Ruins of Sham (Imam Houssain)
Creation
The heritage of passion
Savior
Dissimulation
Do know that It is so
Imagination
The Bless
Gentleness

Mohammed Reza Sharifi

Mohammad Reza Sharifi was born in 1970 in Isfahan. Like all the other artists, he was interested in drawing by paperand pencil and after spending elementary and secondary school he made it to art school in Isfahan. Historical buildings and traditionalhistoric spaces of Isfahan motived him to work on miniature.At the Art school he became interested in works of Reza Abassy andgradually Mahmoud Farshchian, the great Iranian artist After graduationfrom Art school with grade A, he was accepted in the university, in theart field and became familiar with methods and classic modesexperiences and after graduation from university he spent his timeprofessors and galleries like Farshchian. His argument and associated with modern artists opened new horizonsto establish his pictures. He was motivated by art experts to publish the Album "Lost Secret". It is necessary to say this Album is a bit of his works and most of hisworks because of his personal mentality and ambiguity and contrasts ofcommunication with others has not been published and kept in privatecollection. During this 16 years working on drawing he succeeded to hold more than 30 exhibitions individually and in group, and createdalmost 200 everlasting pictures. Each of these exhibitions was acceptedby many people who like art from different parts of the world. Each of his pictures shows his creative mind and is like a thick bookthat each page of it has many secrets and mysteries. His technic is to create Acrylic and Rose complexion pictures onmockets with 2 m.m thickness. His pictures are complect. He hasnot used elementary drawing and scace and directly use his powerfulfeeling and painting his works. The works presented at this exhibition are the result of experience and investigation into various Iranian and European styles which relate the personality of elements to the immersions of the painter and are considered as means of communication with respectable beholdersand art lovers.

Creation